everything really does suck, i can`t stand listening to people laugh. I just nearly broke down today at work listening to co workers laughing and talking. I wanted to take the knife i was using and use it to see the color of my own bone, i didn`t care if i was at work i just wanted to watch the warm blood flow from my arm. i feel so out of place no matter where i go or who i`m with, friends, family, everyone, i just can`t seem to connect with anyone anymore and i just want to fade away and never return to this life. not gonna respond to anything just so you know. i`m gonna disappear offa here for gods know when. I can`t draw and i don`t want to cause i hate everything i even think of. so sorry, but bye.

Seriously why the hell do people have to be so fucken rude to me cause of my lipring? The fuck! First I had some ass tell me I should read the bible cause of it and today I had some bitch tell me "That thing on your face is making me sick, I want to talk to your manager!" and she repeated that after I told her that I got called in and didn`t have time to change it, what you want me to stick my fingers in my fucken mouth right there in front of you and take it out then hand you your fucken food? BITCH!
*sighs* I just wish people would be nice about it, but that`ll never happen cause they`re all dumbass`s who need to pull their heads outta their fucken ass`s.

I might as well just forget it all. this sucks, life sucks and i just want to fucken die

Start saving moneies for the awesome Len costume I just found and the head set as well X.x
Keep hair blond and grow it out so I can run around as him whenever I want to ~kufufufufufufu~~~
Also save money for that dress form you`ve been wanting since you started attempting to make your own cos play. Fuck that`s a lot o money to save. I don`t wanna keep working a Jack in the Crack for the rest of my shit ass life ~w~

Speaking of work I fucken hate name tags, it creeps the hell outta me when a complete fucken stranger keeps saying your fucken name after every goddamn word he says. I have enough fucken issues with stalkers thank you >.< I really don`t want ANOTHER relapse of sleepless, panic attacked filled nights and days. Gods I`m fucked up.....

life`s been ehh...just found out today that the mother of a gal who we think of as family has passed away...so it`s pretty much a death in the family. I need to ask for the 30th off.